I'm alive......just not kickin yet!

I'm alive.........and my mouth is sore, but everyday the fire that is in my mouth seems to be less and less fire....ry, to which I'm grateful, I'm grateful for many things, which at the top-o-the-list, I'm grateful that little procedure is over.......it was very nice to be sedated and not remember anything and to "sleep through the whole thing" but kind-of weird to "go to sleep" and "wake up" and be different and not remember going through the process of getting there!

All the same, sign me up for sedation again!

It's been a rough last three days due to the fact that there was a miscommunication understanding at work, but not on my part, I didn't miscommunicate the fact that I was having surgery and needed the next day off........but.....so.....I ended up working!!!!!

and so my recovery has just taken a little longer....

but it's caused me to think a little deeper about my situation at work...

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I've been so appreciative of friends and ward members, it's really touched my heart, at a time when my heart needed to be touched.

One day, a while back, my mom and I were talking about some crazy lady on t.v.,

and my mom said to me

"she's not someone I'd want in my wagon train if I had to cross the plains"

that statement made me laugh and then it got me thinkin'......

about qualities and what qualities are important.

I love the pioneers and am so overwhelmed at the things they went through for themselves,

f0r us and for the Lord and for the love of the gospel....

Doesn't it make ya wonder when you get to heaven and you get a chance to meet them?

anyway, so, that little statement from my mother has stuck with me, for different reasons,

#1- I want to be the kind of women that could be strong enough physically, spiritually, and emotional to make the long haul, and not be complaining the whole time, I want to be able to "carry" others instead of being the one that needs to be "carried".

#2- I want to be surrounded by women/people who "could be on my wagon team.......

So, the joke is, Could They Make My Team?

There is so many women I know that I'd want to be walking along side of me, they inspire me to want to be better......isn't that what life is all about?

Jessica is one of those girls......

I asked her if she could drive me to my appt. on Tuesday,

not only did she "drive miss daisy"

(that's what I felt like!)

but

she went the extra mile,

she probably thought they were little things, and she probably just rolled her eyes,

but, huge things to me, that made my eyes water....

She is definitely going on my wagon train with me!

heck, she could even be "the leader" she is that amazing!

but, I've know how wonderful Jessica has been for a long time, ,

we were camp women this past year, one of the reasons it was my favorite camping times...

Us at camp,

Jessica don't hate me cuz I posted a picture......

I promise I made it as small as I could,

you know, I just love ya!

thank you...

good morning.....and our 19th anniversary!

Just a tad bit nervous for this mornings procedure....

and so, of course,

waking up in the wee hours of the morning

and blogging always seems to help,

at least it did last time,

just to clear my head so I can get back to sleep...

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Kurt gave me a blessing of comfort and that helped alot....

I love blessings,

I love the words Heavenly Father speaks

and

the way blessings make you feel,

I love that Kurt can do that for me,

I love the power of the Holy Ghost.

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I love my new calling,

I get to work with music, I love music,

but I don't know a lick about it really,

I just know I love to bare testimony through song,

I'm so grateful for people with the gift of music.....

like Toni....thank you!

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I love the gospel

and how it touches our lives in so many ways...

so many!

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I love friends,

I am grateful for them,

sometimes,

okay, alot of times,

I feel like I work too much

and I don't get to enjoy my girlfriends like I want and need too!

I love the special bonds of friendship you have with the sisters in your ward,

when you think about it...

it really is special!

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thank you Jessica for driving miss daisy!

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I love my family....

I love the power of families,

I love the support of families...

I love the eternal bonds of families,

thank-you to all my family members!

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would you looky there......

I'm tired,

I know I'll be okay for tomorrow...

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good-night!

I get to have more dental surgery

on Tuesday,

which happens to be

our 19th anniversary.....

that's a bummer,

we won't even be able to make-out,

but this time around

I'm a little smarter,

I'm getting sedated...

lucky me!!!

(I'm a little nervous)

our weekend

On Friday we took Candice to the airport.....

I've been emotional and happy,

and happy and emotional this past week...

I have wanted to write the last few days but...

it seemed too over-whelming...

It was tender to see Caitlyn say good-bye,

especially since the two of them haven't seen eye to eye lately...

She will miss Candice

but.......

not for long, cuz she gets C.j.'s room and car!!!

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It was good to talk to Candice this afternoon,

she talked a lot and I could tell that she has been enjoying

her time in Utah so far. Her only complaint is how cold it is there!

she's freezing!!!

and she was freaking out because she actually saw people wearing shorts,

of course, they were going to the gym to work out, but.....

I think she is just in a little bit of freezer shock!

I love family and I'm so grateful that Candice gets to be surrounded by them!

and of course, it always helps to have two cute girl cousins

to hang with!

I'm liken Candice's new hair-do!

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Everyone has made Candice feel welcomed...

thank-you!!!

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Tomorrow she has her first day of her new school...

Good Luck!

Goals...

One of my New Years Resolutions

is to send everyone a birthday gift in my family this year....

I'm good at remembering everyone's b-day's

but

let's face it, there is nothing better than receiving

a small token of love!

I have a big family so, I'm guessin' about 36 tokens of love...

I've always wanted to do alittle better in the

b-day department, and so this is my year!

but, I have a few exceptions,

it will be a creative/fun gift from my heart, and creative on the finances too ,

and there are no promises' that it will be there ON your b-day,

altho, I'm shooting for that too,

I just don't want to feel like I've failed before I've even gotten started!

So, Monday is my nieces birthday, she's my first gift receiver.

she is a college student and so of course, every cute college girl needs a pair of

"book ends"

to make her dorm room look cute!

Here's where my creativity kicks in....

I found these at my local thrift store for $2.

Used some cute paper I had at home,

Added a little personal touch, only on one side,

and Whalaa....

Book ends, these will help Lauren be so smart,

hey, anything I can do to help, right!

(little Lauren and I ..... 19 years ago)

Happy Birthday Lauren Lou!

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P.S. Lauren doesn't read my blog very often and so I feel safe,

but

just in case she does, won't she be so freakin' excited to receive these in her mailbox!

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pss. I bet the rest of my family is so excited for there b-day's this year....

Deidre, you're next!

ha.ha

One more reason we love Sadie...

Who needs a brother to play b-ball with.....

when you have a dog?

(great block shot!)

our foreign ex-change student

I'm not goin' to lie,

I have a pit in my stomach,

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I just bought an airplane ticket for Candice,

she's flyin' on a jet plane in exactly 10 days,

she's going to be a foreign exchange student,

in Vernal.........Utah!

(yes, because it will be foreign to her!)

She has the opportunity to go to school for the last quarter

with her cousins and live with my sweet sister and totally get spoiled by all my family!

I'm excited for her, I really am, and I've felt good about our decision to let her go,

I'm excited for the opportunities that she'll have there, that she can't experience here....

but, now that it's really here, and the ticket is bought, it's reality!

I'm going to miss her so much, and it will make me homesick but happy at the same time!

It's just so weird to me that she's growing up.....

and sad... sad that she's not my little "gink" anymore,

with her squeaky voice and blond curly hair,

now she's old enough to adventure out and about in the big world

and

I don't know if I'm ready for that!!!!

sigh...

....and the word goes too....

"Magical"

that's my word for 2010

I want this year to be just that,

a little magic in each day...

I want to be able to see and appreciate the magical things that do and can happen when we're looking for them!

and to create a little bit of magical fun!

It's funny, after I typed the word "magical" in my previous post,

I knew that was my word, but I wanted to sit on it for a few day to make sure and do you know how many times I heard that word being said?

a few, and it was surprising, and each time I heard it,

it made me smile....

so that's my word!

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Have a Magical New Year to you too!

twenty-ten

Happy New Year!

I can't believe it's a New Year,

a new decade....

I like the turning of the calenders,

it causes everyone to reflect and want to start anew,

with a fresh scents of being,

of letting go of the old and striving for something better,

and to better yourself,

so that others around you will benefit from your strivings...

I like change, it cleanses my soul....

I like looking back at goals that have been accomplished

and goals that need to be goals again!

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2009 was a good year

even the past 8 weeks of the lay-off

we've felt blessed.....

for which I'm so grateful,

it's always from where you might

least expect it,

Christians friends from a different faith

helped make our Christmas brighter this year,

I love how the Lord works in mysterious ways...

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I have a good feeling about this New Year...

change is already taking place,

starting with Candice,

more on that to come cuz that's a post of it own!

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I've been thinking about what my "new" word for this year should be...

last year the word was 'calm'....

I need to find a word that describes how I'm feeling,

and how I want this year to take shape,

and right now I'm feeling alot...

I know the word will come to me, it feels like its right on the tip of my tongue,

I just want it to be a magical word!

and a magical New Year....

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