Our Mother's....

Happy Mother's Day to our Mom's...

This is my favorite picture of mine and Kurt's moms!

San Antonio, Texas

Riverwalk 2006

Court of Honor

"Tender Foot"

*look who is almost taller than his mother...

good corn, he's only 11!!!

Ouch...

This is probably what could happen if your

room was a mess,

you turn off the light to jump in bed, and you run into a laundry basket!

and it probably would hurt worse than childbirth....

It's so odd to me,

why some people have trials,

and others don't!

yes, yes, I know,

everyone

has there own trials,

but really....

it's so odd to me,

why some people have trials,

and some .....

14

The week before his birthday is always the hardest.....

and this morning at 5:27 am

there IT was, sitting on my chest...

the heaviness, the hurt, the longing that it would have been a different outcome,

the second guessing myself of what I would-of, should-of, could-of done differently.

Last year I pasted his birthday and it didn't hurt,

so why is it starting now this year again?

It's been 14 years,

you'd think I'd get over it...

and believe you me, I have in a way,

it sure doesn't physically hurt as it use too,

now it just aches, and it's sad, sad that life isn't perfect.

I guess it's just the mourning process,

and it's okay to mourn someone you love,

a mother's love is amazing,

I loved Landon even before holding him in my arms,

I know that I already knew him,

and that's why it stings so bad because I did know and love him..

*Kurt just said" Can you imagine having a 14 year old AND a Spencer!"

(that's what I needed, a good little chuckle!)