she did it....

She graduated this morning.....

more to come.

Ohhhh...

How would it be to take an afternoon Memorial Day nap upon a trampoline

under a big shade tree?

Spencer thought it was marvelous!!!

I couldn't find him for awhile, I thought he was up in his room cleaning,

well, he was suppose to be,

after a while, and when I was sure his room would be clean,

I went up to check....

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it took me awhile, BUT,  I finally found him!

count 'em baby....

3 more days till Candice comes....

AND

4 more days till Caitlyn graduates!!!

 we had a nice evening....

 the weather has been gorgeous here the last couple of weeks,

first, we went to Spencer's last concert for the year,

I really enjoyed it, sometimes those things are hard to sit through,

cuz the kids are just learning how to play there instruments,

(bless there little hearts)

but, 

tonight was nice, I love that Spencer plays percussion and I can't take my eyes off of him when he's playing, 

it's amazing to watch him play all the different instruments and I always love that he has a solo part,

 and

because I'm his mother, and this is my blog, isn't it an unwritten rule to brag about your kids on your blog,

 so,

 he's the only 7th grader in the 9th grade band!
also, his band was on Fox News earlier this week,
they were voted "the coolest school".....

then....

we went to Caitlyn new job and let's just say the service was great 

and 

she is the best ice cream scooper and mixer this side of the Mississippi!!!!!

It's fun watching my kids grow up.....

Candice is coming to town, I'm so excited to have her here!!!!
and
Lynzie is rocking volleyball!

so much to catch up on,
but again,
I'm just lovin' on my kids.

Mother's Day 2012...

 Hand-dipped chocolate covered strawberries

 is how we showered my mom with love today....

 Ha, Ha

Lynzie and Steve

We talked and laughed with Candice and visited with Landon,

it was nice to connect with all my kids today,

I've had a great  Mother's Day as we're been celebrating all weekend...
Kurt showered me with love all day yesterday.

I am truly blessed to be a mom to such sweet little spirits...

I always think about Landon a lot during the last week in April, 

after my water broke,

that was our time we spent in the hospital together...

on bed rest.

 I think about the day he was born,

 and all the events that lead up to his birth, 

 all those scary moments in between and even a few good ones.

 and of course, after he was born,

 as we, Kurt and I, spent time just holding him, and being with him.

 he was beautiful and his little body was perfect, 

it's kind-of hard to see how cute he was in pictures because his little face was red,

but, he was just adorable!

 it was an amazing feeling to hold him and still be able to feel his little spirit even though it wasn't in his body anymore,

 the veil between this life and the next was very thin, 

I believe thinner than at any other time in my life, 

being his mother and having the priveledge of being a vessel to bring his perfect little body down on this earth, and then, feeling it leave to go back to his heavenly home,
 it was a unique and amazing experience to say the least, truly sad and very surreal because you really can't believe that it's happening to you..... but calming at the same time... if that makes sense?

it only seems right when you think about it, 

that the veil between heaven and earth would have to be so thin...

 I wish he could have stayed with us.... 

it's been 16 years today...

and just as any mother would,  just looking at this pictures makes my arms ache to hold him again.

I will always be grateful for his cute nurse, who gave him a bath, and helped me dress him,
she was so gently and kind to Landon,
 and held it together so beautifully until the end when we said our good-byes,
then she started to cry too...

Happy Birthday Sweetheart.